Mexico Recap V.3 – Hoping to Survive to the Next Day

Part of having diabetes is experiencing low blood sugars. As hard as I try to avoid them, sometimes they sneak up on me when I least expect it; some not so bad, others, bad. The first Sunday we were in Mexico (of course we were on vacation!), I experienced a low blood sugar like I’ve never experienced before-that’s still on my mind. It was by far the worst low blood sugar I’ve had since I was diagnosed 7 1/2 years ago. I was honestly fearful that I would not live to see the light of the next day.

We were walking back to our room from another area of the resort, and my Dexcom alarmed telling me I was low, I thought, that’s funny I sure don’t feel low. I tested and sure enough, I was in the upper 60’s-totally manageable I thought! When I got back to the room, I sat down and treated with Glucolift tablets (YUM). Then I started to sweat profusely and shake. I sat, in a puddle of sweat, and I waited. Then I started to feel really bad. I got up, got the glucagon out of my supply bag, and handed it to Seth, I said, “if things get bad, here’s the glucagon.” I sat back down, trying to harness what was left of any cognitive function to will this horrible feeling away, and then all of a sudden I was reduced to a puddle of tears. I couldn’t take it. It was awful. All that was going through my head was, please, please, let me survive this. Let it be okay. Test, 44, arrow down, re-test, still down, 48. A terrifying eternity. I ate chocolate, I also ate a whole lot more Glucolift tablets. I ate, and ate, and cried, and cried. IMG_5559[1] IMG_5558[1] IMG_5561[1] IMG_5563[1]

I have never in my life cried during a low blood sugar. I sure as hell hope I never do again. I’m so thankful I survived, but the emotional and psychological ramifications of that low are still very present and raw. Hopefully with time they’ll heal.


Reminders that I have type 1 diabetes…and sometimes it wants to be a complete asshole. My bgs have been a little wonky lately, so this past Monday I just decided I was going to manifest awesomeness…which I did! Funny how that works.

Then, I’m laying on the couch last night with my ankle elevated (long story) and all of a sudden boom, my heart is racing and I’m really hot. I think, hmph I should probably test my bg. Sure enough, 54. That’s the lowest low I have had in probably 1 1/2 years? I have maybe 1 low per month anymore. I went into the kitchen, treated, and then came back to elevate my ankle some more. I said to Seth, “it’s really hard to not walk into the kitchen, inhale everything in it, and then curl up in a ball and go to sleep and not wake up.” This has always been the best way for me to attempt describing my cognitive thoughts when I’m low – I literally want to curl up and go to sleep, and not wake up 😦 Doesn’t happen often, but it is the worst feeling in the world.

On top of all of that, having manifested my bgs back into submission…I still rebounded from that low, and ruined my Dexcom graph (HATE THAT!). So, that’s what I get for not inhaling the entire kitchen to try to save myself.

Reminders. Reminders of the mental burden of this disease, and just what it has the capability of doing.


Diabetes Blog Week Day 2 – Poetry

Our topic today is Poetry Tuesday.  This year, Diabetes Blog Week and TuDiabetes are teaming up to bring out the poet in you! Write a poem, rhyme, ballad, haiku, or any other form of poetry about diabetes. After you’ve posted it on your blog, share it on the No Sugar Added® Poetry page on TuDiabetes, and read what others have shared there as well!

I wrote a haiku inspired by a couple traumatic low blood sugars I’ve had – when the air was so heavy I couldn’t breathe, and sat in a puddle of sweat wondering if I’d make it through to the other side:

Confusion sets in.
Air is heavy on my shoulders.
Blood sugar 39.

Suite D Guest Post: Managing Low Blood Sugars Living the Paleo Lifestyle

This week I guest post on Suite D, the Omnipod Diabetes Blog about Managing Low Blood Sugars Living the Paleo Lifestyle.

I receive a lot of questions about lows, and Paleo, and I can assure you lows mean something different to me now, than they once did. In addition, my relationship with food has drastically changed.

If you have questions, I would love to hear them!

Nana Punkin Chocolate Chunk Bread

Like that? I tried to get creative with the name, nana = banana, punkin = pumpkin.

As I dabble more in baking in the Paleo realm, I’m learning which ingredients to adjust at different times, etc. It’s fun, but trust me, things don’t always turn out well!

Nana Punkin Chocolate Chunk Bread

Mix bananas, eggs, melted coconut oil and pumpkin until well incorporated (I used my KitchenAid Mixer). Add coconut flour, baking soda, cinnamon, dash of salt, and mix. Toss mega chunks in (however many you prefer), and lightly stir.DSC_0175 Pour into loaf pan oiled with coconut oil, and bake for about 40 minutes at 350 degrees.DSC_0183DSC_0178

Things I’ll change next time I make it (and I WILL make it again): I will use 1 less egg, and a 1/4 cup more coconut flour. Also, adding chocolate is rare for me, but if I’m going to, it’s going to be Enjoy Life.

This recipe was adapted from the Civilized Caveman’s Paleo Banana Bread. In the interest of Auto-Immune Protocol, I eliminated the nut-butter and replaced it with the pumpkin and an extra TBSP coconut oil. I also removed the baking powder as I haven’t found one I like that doesn’t contain corn. The only thing I measured was the baking soda.

P.S. Last night, I prevented a low blood sugar with a slice of this warmed up and a drizzle of raw honey 🙂